I don’t know about you but at the end of my day I often look around and feel as if I haven’t accomplished anything. Today was such a day. As I looked around my kitchen and saw dirty dishes and counters I felt defeated. I knew there was no way I would get what I wanted done. Then and idea struck me. I started running through a list of the things I had accomplished and was really surprised at all I had done. Just so you know, we operate on a pretty crazy schedule around here due to chronic Lyme disease, a child who has been having mental issues, and a husband who works crazy hours. Last night (well really this morning) I didn’t get Sarah to sleep until nearly 4 am and I was still awake until almost 6 because of my Lyme. At noon I was rudely woken up by Sarah loudly arguing with her sister (mind you, she’s deaf and doesn’t speak words, but she uses her voice really well. When you are sound asleep this sound reminds you of the scene in Jurassic Park when the T-Rex is chasing the jeep and Jeff Goldblum is shouting, “Must go faster! Must go faster! Sarah is the T-Rex).
Yeah, I pretty much responded the same way the people in the jeep did. After being jolted awake, I am often not at my best. My sweet girls got me my first cup of tea (a cup for me is a 20 oz. travel mug) while I had a little discussion with Sarah. These discussions happen many times throughout my day. Just imagine you have a over active 3 year old in the body of a 26 year old and you’ll sorta get the picture. Gene leaves for work at 2:30 so there were some things I had to get done before he left.
This is my list of what I accomplished today. I encourage you to make your own list of things you have done, I think you will be surprised at how much you really did accomplish. This is in no way me bragging, far from it. I have about 1 million and 1 things that are incomplete that needed to be finished weeks ago. But, such is my life. I am learning to do what I can do and not sweat it if I can’t.
So here was/is my day. It’s 12 am as I’m writing this and I still have at least 2 hours of work to go. Just for clarity, right now we have people on 4 different diets due to health reasons, so often my kitchen is more like a diner.
Woke up Startled out of restful sleep Morning Cuppa Technically afternoon, but who’s counting
Made Hannah’s breakfast
Made Gene’s lunch for work
Made Sarah’s lunch
Made Chicken stock in the crockpot (it is still simmering and I LOVE that smell!)
Made Hannah and Rachel’s lunch
Ran errands- HEB, Walmart and Dollar Tree (did you know that they have $1 digital timers? I love timers!!!)
Watered the yard (this took repeated trips outside to move the sprinkler)
Made Sarah & Hannah’s meatloaf & Sarah’s squash
Researched information and e-mailed it to a friend
Replied to 5+messages
Sarah in bed (only sorta, she won’t be asleep for hours)
Made the rest of us regular meatloaf
Wrote this blog post
Still to do:
Make homemade laundry detergent
Make coconut milk
Dishes (I seriously doubt those will get finished!)
Clean kitchen counters and stove (not looking promising either)
Through out all of this there many times I stopped to correct or counsel Sarah, visit with the girls, and drink many cups of tea. The reality is, I will always have something unfinished, and my To-Do list will never be completed. Why do I keep beating myself up for not being able to do the impossible? I am going to stop chastising myself and accept the reality that is my life. I will always strive to do better, but I am not going to beat myself up over it. How about you? What did you accomplish today? Do you beat yourself up over what didn’t get done?