Today is the 5 year anniversary of when I began blogging. It is so hard to believe that the time has flown by so quickly. Since I began blogging I have gone from having 5 daughters at home to having 4 and a grand-baby on the way. We have evacuated for 2 hurricanes and battled storms in our personal lives such as the girls going from being normal healthy girls to battling illness almost constantly. These last 5 years have brought about many changes, some of them good, some questionable.
In looking back over my old posts I see that things I pondered before, I am still pondering, sometimes from the other side. I wonder if some of these thoughts will never be answered for me and I will just have to do the best I can for this time. The Lord has shown me many things over these last 5 years (as well as the years before) and it is encouraging to be able to look back and see what He has been doing in my life. As I was looking back over some of my old posts I came across this quote by Spurgeon which is how I feel about many things that I ponder.
“That God predestines, and that man is responsible, are two things that few can see. They are believed to be inconsistent and contradictory; but they are not. It is just the fault of our weak judgment. Two truths cannot be contradictory to each other. If, then, I find taught in one place that everything is fore-ordained, that is true; and if I find in another place that man is responsible for all his actions, that is true; and it is my folly that leads me to imagine that two truths can ever contradict each other. These two truths, I do not believe, can ever be welded into one upon any human anvil, but one they shall be in eternity: they are two lines that are so nearly parallel, that the mind that shall pursue them farthest, will never discover that they converge; but they do converge, and they will meet somewhere in eternity, close to the throne of God, whence all truth doth spring. (New Park Street Pulpit, 4:337)”
As I look back, I can’t help but look forward as well. Where will we be in 5 years? What changes will have taken place? How will God grow each of us? What family members will no longer be living? I am reminded that we are not promised our next breath, much less tomorrow and that we should do our best to serve our Lord in every moment that we have here on earth. How will we do this over the next few years? I don’t know, but I look forward to seeing what God has in store for me no matter what the circumstance. My prayer is that I will remember that His grace is sufficient!